I often find myself overly confident in my own ability. After all, I am–ME! 🙂 I have a Type-A personality, including all of the typical characteristics that go along with that stereotype. I am determined, disciplined, driven to complete (complete well, I might add), and dependable. Those are good D-words, aren’t they?
Unfortunately, I also exhibit some of the not-so-nice D-words … demanding, domineering, dictatorial … *sigh*… I can’t bring myself to list anymore. (I asked Tim for some more negative examples. He gave me some, but I thought they were all good qualities. Oh, well. That’s the problem with Type-A. We tend to think we have it all figured out, and then we laugh it off when others don’t agree. Clearly, I have some work to do.)
The Lord reminded me, as He often does, that my confidence is not to be in myself, but in Him, alone.
Even though he was a mighty warrior, David did not trust in his own strength, skill, or weaponry; he trusted in God for victory and salvation.
You are my King and my God. You command victories for Israel.
Only by your power can we push back our enemies; only in your name can we trample our foes.
I do not trust in my bow; I do not count on my sword to save me.
You are the one who gives us victory over our enemies; you disgrace those who hate us.
O God, we give glory to you all day long and constantly praise your name. (Psalm 44:4-8) [Emphasis added.]
In Philippians 3, Paul goes into great detail, listing all of his personal accomplishments and how he could, if he wanted to, have confidence in them. But in verses 7-8 he clarifies, “[I] put no confidence in human effort …I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ.” [Emphasis added.]
God delights in using those who are weak so that He can show His strength and wisdom.
Instead of trusting in your own ability, trust God to use your inability for His glory!
Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world’s eyes or powerful or wealthy when God called you. Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important … Therefore, as the Scriptures say, “If you want to boast, boast only about the Lord.” (1 Corinthians 1:26-28, 31)
My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
When I’m feeling a little too D-ish, the Lord gently and graciously provides an opportunity for me–not–to get it right. It’s downright frustrating to be a Type-A personality and have a major fail. But God uses these times to show me that it’s not about me, it’s all about Him.
What about you? Are you trusting in your “bow or sword,” or your list of accomplishments? Or are you trusting in God alone?